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  Before She Wakes: Forbidden Fairy Tales is a work of fiction. Names, places, and incidents either are products of the author’s imagination or are used fictitiously. Any resemblance to actual events, locales, or persons, living or dead, is entirely coincidental.

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  Copyright © 2016 by Sharon Lynn Fisher

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  Contents

  Cover

  Title Page

  Copyright

  Epigraph

  Chapter 1: The Garden Rules

  Chapter 2: The Dragonmaid’s Secret

  Chapter 3: Raven Takes a Pearl

  Chapter 4: The Kelpie’s Prize

  Chapter 5: Willa and the Wisp

  Chapter 6: The Dragonfly Prince

  Dedication

  Acknowledgments

  About the Author

  The Editor’s Corner

  Eroticism resides in the ambiguous space between anxiety and fascination.

  —Esther Perel, Mating in Captivity

  1

  The Garden Rules

  PORTLAND, OREGON—A FEW YEARS FROM NOW

  Earthly Delights

  “Your life would be richer if you weren’t so afraid.”

  I stared at the tarot reader. She was easily five years younger than me. Probably more. Was she reciting from a script? It was a fact of life that people were afraid of the things they wanted most, but they usually didn’t figure that out until they had a few decades behind them. At that point they chalked it up to self-preservation—it was comfy being crabby and rigid.

  Or maybe that was just me.

  “It’s like you’ve been editing your entire life. Going along day to day, judging moment to moment, never really present, or knowing what it is you really want.”

  “Are you for real?” Yep, I said it out loud.

  She gave me a smug smile. I scowled at her teal Ganesh tattoo, smirking at me from under his trunk. Cheeky elephant bastard.

  Who gets mad at Ganesh? And why am I the one acting like a child?

  “Thanks,” I murmured ungraciously, rising from the table.

  As I turned to exit the tent, she chirped, “Enjoy the festival,” with annoying emphasis on the word “enjoy.”

  The nerve of her, in her hippie-ass, yoga-toned, champa-scented, pantheistic superiority.

  How dare she be right.

  By the time I reached the food carts my hands had unclenched, but I’d lost my appetite. Which was a damn shame, because you could find stuff on the menu at the Garden of Earthly Delights Fair that you could find nowhere else. Chocolate-covered everything, from figs to bacon to grasshoppers. Champagne-flavored gelato. Passion-fruit cupcakes. The aroma of roasting meat dominated everything—bison, boar, venison, pheasant, and some so exotic I hadn’t a clue. I loitered around the beer garden, easily half the size of a soccer field, but too much noise. Too many sweaty bodies. Ditto for the wine flight tent.

  But I needed something.

  I closed my eyes and listened to the strains of live music drifting over the throngs. Portland orchestral pop from the bandstand to the north, mingling inharmoniously with a Renaissance air from more immediately south. High above them, in circus announcer tones, I heard the sweetmeats barker and felt a Pavlovian rush.

  At last year’s fair I’d bought a baker’s-dozen bag of the recreational narcotics. Like truffles, they came in every shape, color, and flavor. One token each, or thirteen for ten. I’d made that bag last a whole year. My job at the university didn’t pay me enough to take vacations, but sweetmeats I could afford.

  I’d never eaten one in public, but maybe today would be different.

  Grinding my heel into the grassy hillside, I headed for the adults-only section of the fair. I flashed my ID at the security guard and strode past booths crammed full of sexual implements that ranged from intriguing to terrifying. There were tents for the procurement of cannabis and all the accompanying paraphernalia. Tattoo and piercing artists. One tent I passed had a table just inside the entrance where a customer was having work done right there in real time, only a clear plastic curtain between her and the passersby. An odd little cry erupted and I paused to gawk. A woman wearing something that looked like the top half of a Wonder Woman costume lay there spread-eagle, a rubber-gloved man focused intently between her bare legs. She winked at me and slung a leg over the man’s shoulder as he was rising.

  I was not the most in-touch person with my body. I’d signed up for yoga several times because everyone said it helped you relax, but I’d never made it to more than three classes. There was no mystery about what was going on in my body now, though. As I continued toward my destination, I couldn’t exorcise images of the woman’s spread-open legs. The little hitch in her cry that hinted the cause was something more interesting than pain. The curve of the piercing-man’s biceps, and the way he’d settled back between her thighs when she threw her leg over him. Had he touched her after I’d passed? Even pressed his lips to the tissue he’d just damaged at her request?

  “Sweetmeats?”

  Apparently my body had resumed its progress toward our destination, sans pilot. I studied the man before me. He wore clown makeup, but none of the other accoutrements. He had spiky black hair, a chiseled bare chest that displayed a snake tattoo, and hot-red (same color as the nose) leather pants.

  “Er.”

  He smiled a bizarre clown smile. The effect with the spiky hair was unsettling. “Eve will be happy to help you.” He drew open the tent flap.

  “Eve.” I glanced at the sign above the flap. THE GARDEN, it read, and beneath the words was an illustration of a green man with an oversized acorn cap for a hat. My feet seemed to grow roots.

  “Nothing to be afraid of,” urged the clown’s voice, the reassurance tinged with a side of amusement at my expense.

  What is this, a goddamn conspiracy?

  I uprooted my feet and strode into the tent.

  At first I thought the woman on the fat sofa within was a child. But she was just a very small person. And contradicting my expectation of animal skins and a fake snake for an accessory, she wore a neat coral-pink suit.

  “Welcome to The Garden,” she said with a bright smile, motioning me to the chair across from her.

  Between us stretched a low table covered with small gold-and-green boxes. Bright as the boxes were, their contents were subdued in comparison. Nestled inside each one, in what looked like Easter grass made from recycled paper, was a candy acorn the size of a cherry.

  “This is an exciting day for you,” said Eve. The vibration under her voice suggested she was pretty excited herself. I wondered if she’d be able to keep that up all day. How many people had been admitted to the tent so far?

  I lifted my eyebrows, studying the luxurious tower of chestnut hair atop her head. “Is it?”

  Eve nodded, and I admired the structure’s stability.

  “Our sweetmeat has just been approved for commercial use. As we are Portland-based, we’ve chosen the Garden of Earthly Delights Fair as the point of distribution for our beta group.”

  “Beta…Doesn’t that mean something’s still being tested?” I’d dated a software developer for a while. It was ha
rd to avoid in this part of the country.

  “I assure you we are fully safety tested and approved. But we are eager to improve our product based on customer feedback. So eager, in fact, that we are offering our sweetmeat free of charge for the duration of the festival.” She lifted one of the boxes from the table, removed the lid from the bottom, and closed it. Then she held it out to me. “All we ask is that you call the number on the card inside the box to schedule an interview within two weeks of trying our product.”

  “Thanks, Eve…” I said slowly, eyeing the box like it had fangs. “But I’m not sure I’m feeling quite that adventurous.” If you weren’t so afraid…“Maybe I’ll visit you again next year and buy a few boxes.”

  “Of course,” she said, her lipsticked smile not slipping a fraction. She placed the box on the sofa next to her. “Next year we’ll offer them for twenty tokens each.”

  I stared at her. “Twenty tokens for one?”

  “You only need one.”

  Small pink salesperson, 1. Me, 0. I held out my hand. Her smile brightened, and in a motion too quick to detect with the human eye, the box was transferred to me.

  “You won’t be disappointed.”

  “What does it do?” I asked, opening the box to study the innocuous-looking nut.

  “Are you a virgin?”

  I glanced up, my mouth hinging open.

  “You’ve eaten sweetmeats before?”

  “Oh. Yes.”

  She nodded. “This is the same thing, but a much more vivid and sustained experience. Like you’ve taken four at once, but with no unpleasant side effects. You’ll also find it more realistic than your garden-variety sweetmeat.” She chuckled at her own pun. “We don’t see the point in mixing in a sedative. You won’t feel like you’re under the influence.”

  I wasn’t sure that last point was in the plus column, but I kept it to myself. “You mean it’s more like a VR game?”

  “Yes, very much like that. You’ll have the sense that you’re not in control, like a dream you can’t escape. But it’s all driven by your subconscious, and you can stop anytime you want.”

  I frowned. Sweetmeats were regulated narcotics, not simulators. “How do you stop it?”

  “You use our safe word: Dorothy.”

  They were mixing their cultural references, but the context would make it easy to remember. And it wasn’t a word anyone was likely to say in the course of regular conversation. But something didn’t add up.

  “How can a sweetmeat respond to use of a safe word? It’s just a drug, isn’t it?”

  Her smile tightened infinitesimally. “I’m afraid that’s proprietary.”

  It was all well and good for Tammy Tarot to tell me I needed to stop being afraid. I was even self-aware enough to admit she was right. But you had to draw a line somewhere. I imagined heroin to be an amazing ride, but not so amazing was the part where you were thrown in prison for knocking over liquor stores.

  It’s not heroin. It’s an approved recreational drug. Certified non-addictive.

  I rose with the box in my hand. “Dorothy.”

  Eve repeated, “Dorothy.”

  Since she chose to interpret it as confirmation of the safe word, so did I.

  Offering another of her perfectly pink smiles, she said, “Enjoy the festival.”

  When my back was turned I rolled my eyes. It wasn’t Eve’s fault the universe was conspiring to push me off a cliff.

  “Look for your sponsor when you arrive,” she called as I reached for the tent flap. “He or she will help you adjust to your new environment.”

  Sponsors and safe words and twenty-token sweetmeats. “Right,” I said, ducking out of the tent.

  I carried my treasure out of the adults-only section, past the food carts, and all the way down to the river, continuing to walk until I found myself on the outskirts of the festival. Sinking onto a grassy bank overlooking the Willamette, I opened the box to examine its costly cargo. Pushed it around with my finger.

  It had about the same heft as an acorn, and the same sugar-wax coating of other sweetmeats I’d eaten. Really, it looked like nothing special. Did I dare? I glanced around at the smattering of folk relaxing on the green of the waterfront park: a couple making out on a faded quilt in the sunshine, a woman reading a book and drinking a giant smoothie, a man throwing a ball for his dog.

  Waiting until I got home would be the prudent thing to do—unless something went wrong with the “fully safety-tested and approved” acorn. There was nobody at home to call for help, not since the last in a line of uninspiring boyfriends had moved out three months ago. But I’d experienced some vivid…hallucinations on sweetmeats, and I wasn’t sure how much of that my physical body had mirrored while I was out of it.

  I decided I was overthinking it. I’d never eaten a sweetmeat that had rendered me completely senseless to my surroundings. I could park myself in the shade of a willow tree on the riverbank in relative privacy and still be within shouting distance of help if I needed it.

  Resting my back against the tree trunk, I popped the sweetmeat into my mouth before I could talk myself out of it. Soft like a truffle, with a maple sweetness that was less cloying than most of its kin, the acorn melted on my tongue. I would have happily eaten a bagful of the things. I recalled I’d skipped lunch.

  Too late to remedy that now.

  Rebirth

  I erupt from a womb of green, thrashing and disoriented in a swift-moving current. My head bobs free of the surface and I suck in a lungful of air before plunging back down again.

  Before I can spit out my safe word, the current washes me into an eddy created by moss-covered stones. I catch my hand in a crack between two of them, hauling myself out of the water. Feeling the moss’s damp velvet against my belly and thighs, I realize I’m completely naked.

  I collapse onto the bank and breathe. Liquid ribbons still tickle my ankles, gently tug at my toes, reminding me their master once had me and can have me again.

  Not real. Everything’s okay.

  Everything’s more than okay. I’ve never hallucinated like this before. Textures, colors, smells…all of it is somehow more than real. Rolling onto my back, I lift my finger to touch a small white starburst—a jasmine blossom. A whole cloud of them hangs from the vines overhead, raining down their sweet, exotic fragrance. Returning my gaze to earth, I study the perimeter of ferns—the signature color of spring—and the low, twisting vine maples, their leaves the size of a man’s hand.

  I stroke my arms against the cushion of moss. Wriggle a little so it brushes my back and buttocks. I stretch lazily, watching the light dance in beads of water bejeweling my skin.

  The temperature is perfect. The air, weightless. I close my eyes.

  I gasp as I feel something touch my hip and steal onto my abdomen. I reach to flick what looks like a grass snake from my belly, only to discover I cannot move. Animate vines, the same velveteen texture as the moss, bind me hand and foot.

  With a soft, frantic cry, I call, “Hello?”

  “Hello.”

  The low rumble draws my gaze to one side. Something only partly human steps from behind the curtain of green…a faun. My chest vibrates with the increased tempo of my heart. My experience is still my own, I’ve been assured. But none of this feels like it’s happening inside my head.

  There’s one way to be sure, but I’m not ready to go there yet.

  My eyes glide over the faun’s tawny perfection. His chest and arms glisten with a light coating of sweat. Except for the nest of auburn curls around the base of his curved horns, his torso is hairless. From the hips down, more of the auburn curls, terminating finally in two hooves where his feet should be.

  A hoof thumps the ground as he adjusts his stance. I swallow, my heart drumming faster, as my eyes follow a movement at his groin. He’s suddenly erect, and as his hoof thumps again, the head of his cock smacks lightly against his abdomen.

  “Who—?” But the question sticks in my throat.

 
“You’re not to speak, Nymphet,” he commands. The smile has faded. “Not unless I speak to you first. This is the first of the Garden Rules.”

  “Nymphet?” I whisper, afraid of my own voice now.

  His eyes narrow, and his gaze rakes slowly over my body.

  I gasp as the vine at my waist snakes once around me to coil up and over my nipples. The silky glide—the sudden tension as it binds me—hardens them in an instant. Another vine coils up one leg, sliding between my thighs, dragging a trail of my own wetness across my hip.

  He notices and lifts an eyebrow. I feel the kiss of pink on my skin.

  The hooves rise and fall as he moves closer. His legs bend both forward and backward as he sinks beside me, the head of his cock lightly brushing my waist. My abdomen goes molten, every breath coming now as a gasp.

  I’m powerless. Exposed. Frightened. And powerfully aroused by the open threat of him, hot and hard against me.

  The vine tightens over my nipples, straining the flesh of my breasts so it rises on either side. My body arches up from the moss, seeking rougher sensation, beyond the control of my thoughts. The vine is so taut between my legs that I cry out.

  He bends over me, and my knees tip outward.

  He smiles, not with kindness, but with smug satisfaction. “You want my cock.”

  My lips part, breath passing audibly in and out. I nod.

  “Say it, Nymphet.” His hand wraps around the shaft. “Notice I do not call you Nymph. You have not earned that honor.”

  The vine slithers between my legs and I groan, parting my legs farther. “Please!”

  His chuckle comes as a teasing caress. “You’ve not earned that either. And if you don’t want to be taken by the beasts of the garden right where you lie, you’ll keep your voice down.”

  “Are you my sponsor?” I choke out, remembering Eve’s parting instruction.

  “Your sponsor, yes,” he confirms. “But not your protector. The garden’s will is supreme. No one can protect you here.” The corners of his lips twist up. “Speak any word you like and see if it will save you.”